Facing the greater fight of the world is me, Autumn Indigo. I understand the magnetic obsession with social media. As a wanna-be blogger I am glued to my phone observing other blogger femmes. Checking out how many followers she has and how much money she is making. When did talent become based off of what the next girl was doing?
Social media can be both your greatest friend and enemy. A helpful tool indeed that has given many people the opportunity to connect with one another and gain opportunities to grow. The development of social media sparked like an invisible asteroid hitting the earth. The spark spread so quickly that we were not even aware of the changes in our world. People had the key to everything in one click or search engine. They are able to find friends, jobs, food and inspiration. Social media's written purposes are to develop connections, garnish opportunities, check out inspiring content and finding the need to knows. Thus trumping the yellow book and computer. Almost meant to be a motivational tool, the service has also proven to be well, intimidating.
In 2008, I was a 10-year-old girl entering my 5th grade class in a grey and pink detailed plaid set. Yes, my love for style came from my OG stylist, my mom. A plaid skirt set reminiscent to Clueless , black ankle boots and a suitcase, I was killing the game. I expected the oohs and ahs of my fellow classmates the minute I stepped foot into the classroom. Unfortunately, I received a simple meh. This was due to the other stylish girl in school wearing the black Baby Phat jacket with the fur trimmed at the hood. She turned around wearing a black pleated skirt and boots with the same color fur as the jacket. Back then, that was unheard of. A full Baby Phat outfit at the age of 10 was riveting, rebellious and ready for everything thrown at her. Therefore, I was defeated. Well defeated, for the moment that is. After the first 25 minute break of the class, I got over it and I continued living my life. As a 10-year-old, I understood the concept of being intimidated by someone else for a minute and moving on. Now, it is not so easy.
Back to the present day, Instagram has developed the most genius and creepiest tool of all, the saving tool. Instead of screenshotting a stranger's photo onto your phone, you can just save it on Instagram to look at later. Confession time: I have over 500 photos saved onto my Instagram of girls with amazing body's, sense of style, gorgeous hair and make up. I am not ashamed to admit that I worship these style sirens. This is when social media is powerful! But, there is a thin line between inspiration and self defeating.
As a blogger, I am reminded of everything that I have ever struggled with about myself. My insecurities with my body, self and career come into the light and steal the shine from my success. Why, because I'm always comparing it to what the next girl is doing. Being in media, I see all the opportunities other girls are receiving such as: tv shows, massive followers and money. Of course these are one of the things that comes with being a blogger. My first year of blogging was difficult and involved a lot of changes based off of what I saw everyone else was doing. The changes continued and my followers progressed slowly. However, I was still not happy with the results. I continued subtly trying things on the blog that was more of my flavor and ultimately decided that even though I wanted the perks of those shiny hair couture flowing foreign bloggers, I am not one of them.
I'm a young African American girl from Los Angeles and I know there are other girls like me. Girls who are not in the location they would love to be but they make the most of it and still represent where they are from. Those girls that believe in going against the norm and trying a career that they once saw on tv and became obsessed with. I am transforming my blog to be the voice of those girls. The best part of doing this transition is that it takes zero effort because I am just being me. I am living my life to the fullest and being recognized for it. And I'll take that over 50k followers any day.