Two years ago- Over 50 communication students gathered in a classroom for a huge announcement from the department. One of the top Public Relation professors at the university announced the beginning of the 2017 University of La Verne Senior Projects. The proposed project allowed students to choose their form of communications, and within their field, they can create a project that proves their understanding of what they've grasped in the past four years. "If you play your cards right, this project can determine your whole future," one professor remarked.
Graduation date was coming closer and the students were both excited yet, frightened. I was one of them! I always feared the future, or what was life after college. I was one of the three only communication majors with a journalism concentration in the whole room. Even then, I was surrounded by future public relation representatives for senators, news writers for CNN and even traveling war zoned photographers. My peers felt that journalism gave them a political purpose. I, on the other hand, supported fashion, art, and entertainment. I had two choices: A) I could be like everyone else and do a senior project related to the 2016 United States election of Donald Trump or B) Fulfill a project that I actually care about but, be typecast as that "entertainment" journalist. After mapping it out and drawing my usual pro's and con's list, I decided to create this blog. The Indigo Stop was an outlet that gave me an excuse to be more attentive to fashion and pop culture. The Indigo Stop allowed to create a blog where I can connect with other Los Angeles creatives, display my interest in fashion and build a resume for fashion journalism.
Everything was well! I passed the class, received a University reward for the project and graduated from the University of La Verne that May. But, life hits you hard after college. Eventually, I had an amazing internship at a Los Angeles magazine, but due to the declining industry of journalism, the magazine was sold before I can acquire a job. This caused me to go back to the drawing boards. In 2017 to maintain my bills and recent piles of student loans, I picked up a part-time job at an extremely popular place. The place's popularity causes people to do outrageous things such as chase workers when their heading to break, ask for listed show times when they are indeed "listed" and throw the biggest fit in the world when employers ask the guest to not climb on the walls. I started this position in understanding that I was going to be here for a short period of time.
Two years later... and whelp I'm still here! A lot changed within this gap of employment. I worked several freelance and internship positions as a writer, stylist, and assistant. I loved doing these things but eventually, they became time-consuming while maintaining my original employment. Driving back and forth in Los Angeles to having no days off, I was exhausted. So exhausted, that I even shut down my beloved outlet, The Indigo Stop, for quite some time. With the rise of prices for a standard lifestyle, my once part-time hell turned into a full-time income. This meant that I had to work all day, every day.
Most bloggers or creatives make the leap to quit their 9-5 to achieve their dreams. However, I am not like most bloggers. I struggled day after day and I am not afraid to admit that. I wake up at 7 am to write out everything I need to do for the day: write for the blog, go to the gym, purchase outfits, set up photo shoots, appointments and most importantly prepare for work. Even on my off days, I work another part-time job. The tension built and I was living my worst nightmare: Being stuck at my 9-5. Ultimately, I feared not being able to do what I love and receive payment for it. All of these self-help blogs can recommend you turn your life around 360 degrees and magically everything will come to place. One notable fashion blogger moved to Los Angeles at the age of 18 and she posted constantly. She saw the amount of good feedback she was receiving and decided to quit her bank telling job and to begin her career as a fashion blogger. After 1 year of leaving her corporate position, she landed an interview on E! News, correspondent position at Vogue and even wrote her own book. This is the blogger fairy tale, but we all know what happens when you read the real versions of a fairy tale. No blogger is going to admit this but, that gap between maintaining your dreams and current employment gets thinner and thinner as the day goes by.
Within those two years, I struggled to continue the blog for this reason. I was embarrassed that I let the corporate world scare me out of doing what I loved to do. How was I to write content about being a dreamer or achiever by living this lie of some sort? Blogging is a full-time hustle and I did not even have the energy to produce some halfway shit. In January & February, I continued my time off by building a bigger and better version of the Indigo Stop. I'm happy to say I let the blog go with a positive state of mind. I knew that this was only a hiatus for my dreams to continue. I also knew that this time allowed me to actually sit down and not rush. Ironically the return of my blog was the same day I created it, February 28th.
I decided to use this story as my March message. Life hits you hard and sometimes you have no other choice but to take a break. Do not let this break discourage you. Utilize this time to focus on the real world, get your bills together, spend time with family and friends and even go to church. Do whatever you have to do to get mental well-being back in order. My March message is to march on! 2019 has started and is moving extremely quickly. With the new month, start something new or something that you put in halt last year. Rejuvenate those ideas and develop a passion project. This passion project may not immediately turn in to profits but March On. Continue that 9-5, and always look beyond your current situation or status. March On! And lastly, recognize those around you in the year 2019. These are the people who supported you from the jump, these people have something special hence why they are here with you in 2019. Marching on and Marching forward is important but, never forget who is marching with you!